written on August 3
Friends, it’s been awhile since I’ve posted. I’m writing this from my iPhone on a plane, as our wheels just touched down in Charlotte. 1 more connecting flight. Final destination: Cancun, Mexico! A surprise birthday trip (without Evan & Cole) planned by Jeff, my mother and dear friends. We are so loved. I wish you could see the grin on my face.
July was a busy month celebrating Jeff’s 39th birthday, Jeff’s Grandmother’s 90th Birthday, followed by my (and my twin’s) 40th Birthday! We have a lot to celebrate! Oh we sure do.
Jeff and I left in the quiet of the early morning, coffee in hand (because of course, you can’t start your day without coffee), and nothing but the road, blue skies, sun, sand, love and warmth ahead of us. We will smile, laugh, & feel the beating of each other’s heart. We will feel the sun on our face, celebrate the deep rooted love in our marriage and friendship, and really connect without the long list of “to do’s”, without the fears of “what’s to come”…attorneys, paperwork, disability planning, estate planning, home modification planning…we will do our best to set it all aside and soak up each other. I Can. Not. Wait. Today is a gift.
As I turned on the radio on the way to the airport, this song was playing. I’ve never heard it before and I’m now playing it on repeat. Will you please take a few minutes to listen? It is our prayer…it is our cry…it is our desperate plea…
As you turn up the volume, can I ask you to do just one thing? Turn the palms of your hand up. You don’t need to raise your hands at all, just feel the immediate posture change as you rotate your wrists and the palm of your hand up. Can you feel it? It’s different. It’s immediate. It’s a feeling of submission. Lord, I can’t do this. I need help. I need all of YOU and nothing else. I wanna be different. So come and be different in me.
“I wanna be different
I wanna be changed
‘Til all of me is gone
And all that remains
Is a fire so bright
The whole world can see
That there’s something different
So come and be different
We love you!
Tara & Jeff